Shattered

So today reading a great Friend of mine`s blogg, it got me thinking...
I`ve always considered that we are who we wish to be.
I`ve never concidered myself a good looking gal, but why sit around and complain about it?
Only thing you can do is really to make effort if you want to change, you gotta try.
If i dont like the way i am then i gotta improve it.

I only have a few friends left since high school, and i wasnt a social kinda gal, i prefered to be with my horse and dog and my best friend. And lets face it Karolina, we`re odd...

Not like we met any other odd people thoose nights, the nights when we went out for a walk at 24 pm, The nightly walks we made to the church, to walk around in the grave yard. Do you still remember our " Blair witch project" ? that we did one night around 1am around the graves? I know i remember =)

Come to think of it i still consider it the nicest place in the world, The graveyard. Its soothingly quiet, peace full, and somewhat mysterious.

So are we truly capable of being who we want to be? and if so, why do people suddendly take friends/family for granted? Do we spoil them in affection too much?
I dont believe that a person grows up to want to take advantage of people around them.

If you truly want to change, your personality, your body, maybe you`re a bit too gloomy about life. Then noone can change you, for you, thats something you need to do yourself.

Of course there are people, a rare kind of people, that you meet once in a life time the kind that really goes out of their way to help you see things straight and make a change.

But like i said, once in a life time, maybe you´ve already met yours? and just didnt see straight enough.

I remember when i moved up to dalarna, that was my chance to start over, and be who i wanted to be. I didnt have to dwell in the past with people who kept dragging me down, I could finally be my own. I think that was the greatest choice in my life, to change.
I think i can say i`m a better friend, I truly care for my friends, Maybe i`m a better girlfriend.
And who knows even a better person?
I think i read once " The people around you, tells who you really are" If thats true, i dare say i`m the greatest person alive :D

As Reason clouds My eyes,
With splendor fading
Illousions of the sunlight
And the reflection of a lie will keep me waiting
Love gone for so long.

This day`s ending is the proof of time killing all the faith i know
Knowing that faith is all i hold.

And i`ve Lost who i am
And i can`t understand
Why my heart is so broken
Rejecting your Love
Without Love gone wrong
Lifeless words carry on

But I know
All i know
is that the End is the beginning

Who i am from the start
Take me home to my heart
Let me go
And i will run
I will not be silenced.

All this time spent in vain
Wasted years
Wasted gain
All is lost
Hope remains
And this war`s not over

There`s a light
There`s the sun
Taking all the shattered ones
To the place we belong
And his Love will conquer

Yesterday i died, tommorow`s Bleeding
Fall into your Sunlight

~Trading Yesterday - Shattered ~